Romance and Musings

quite a busy day

Today we are celebrating my elder daughters birthday ,according to malayalam calendar.I love this birthday , on this day , i make lots of dishes and her favourite payasam too. Usually i try to experiment different curries , so that we all don’t get bored with the same menu always.

I remember my mom used to make me sadya, and i loved to have such different tastes. I have grown up to my moms methods so , I still follow the traditional styles ,and make atleast 4 different types of dishes to go along with the rice , Even my daughter too love the sadya, she keeps asking for missing things in her plate , and I tell that ,I made only a few to fill in.

Still, when i see her happily having what i made for her , my hunger runs away, I feel fun ,when she has her food. The pleasure in cooking doubles, when I see them enjoy it. Its a bliss.

Morning onwards i was busy cooking , and as I noticed my younger one precisely busy in playing on her own, and I was relaxed, enjoying my cooking. Little did I notice that what exactly she was upto. 

To keep her busy I gave her a bowl of pomegranates , and by the time i was done with cooking , I wa shocked to see what she had done , in that two hours , of me going unnoticed. She was playing with her doll in the kitchen and I could see pomegranates lying down, all the ways from the hall to kitchen and a lot on her doll. She was trying to feed her lil baby doll ,and thats how she kept her busy, and gave me enough work to keep myself busy again. 

mm… seems i should finish my work, then sit to write… 🙂

Romance and Musings

Years and years passing by

Seems like other day I got married and its hard to believe 9 years.(poor my husband …dealing with me all these years).

I don’t know should i be satisfied, happy or upset and sad, that my years are running out of my hand. All things seems running past me , and I am sitting still like a newly wed..only in thoughts ofcourse, because I look like a big laddoo now ,not like earlier when I was a medium laddoo. 😉 .

Usually weddings are like the best and the memorable day in anyones life. For me I never  did any shopping for wedding, I was a lost soul , I was only 21 when getting married , so only thought disturbing me was that I am gona loose my freedom. Its all the effects of movies, where in I see that a girl looses her family..after her marriage and only thing she has to live with is all the memories.

As I was stepping into the married life, these thoughts suffocated me , I was not sure, how will I manage everything, but am not a coward to run away form all  my responsibilities , so I prepared myself, although being panic, I managed to fix a smile on my face.

Now being a mom and better  wife , things have changed, I don’t need to fix a fake smile, because, things around me , brings a smile on my face. May be thats life after all these years, life lets us understand and realise whats gona be with us forever.A few years before , I used to be jealous with friends who were not married, and enjoying a free life, but when I became a mother, things changed, I started to realise that , when we have everything in life, we don’t go for enjoying with others, and family means everything. 

Its true, when we are not loved, we search for love everywhere, thats when , we loose our confidence ,our self respect, and once we see that ew are perfectly imperfect, nothing matters us , and we love ourself and our family more than anything else. I know my kids love has changed a lot in me, something am proud to be now.

SO my wedding was my stepping stone to my success in my life, which led to me to my kids , so am happily married.