Finally after years being at home, my lil one is off to school. Vacation time ,as we brought her a bag for her new beginning , she was all excited and happy. Even though I had some thoughts lingering in my head , i just try to firmly believe that she would be fine without me. The very first day of her sisters school ,she too packed up her bag and grabbed it while going to drop her sister to her bus. To her disappointment it was not her first day though.
After immensely waiting for two weeks ,it was time for her first day of school. she was happier than i thought and even got ready. I dropped her at the school and she was off to play on the slide. She took a look back at me, waving happily, and i just imprinted that scene deeply in my heart, her happy face.But even returning home after dropping her , my eyes were on the clock. The minutes seemed to be like hours. Finally I ran back to school to pick her.
But oh!! The scene of her being carried by her teachers , I knew she was upset and sad. Her face was all sad. I just hugged her, I didn’t know what to say. The pain was terrible. One side of my heart kept saying that it was going to be fine and the other side, the weak motherhood, was completely ignoring it.
The next day, it was like a hurdle to take her to school, She kept telling me, “mama i love you, I don’t want to go to school” . For a moment I wanted to hug her and say no dear you don’t need to go to school. But yes ,I gathered up the courage and told her, that she need not sorry I would be outside. That day again, I left my crying lil one with her teachers. My heart almost wept. I really hate school at times like this.
A few days then all the crying drams were becoming less. Finally now she goes happily to her school .I see her happy face ,and all my loneliness and worries fly off. I assured myself that I was giving her the best time of her school life , when I used to send her crying,and here I was all right about it.
Still i was missing her all daylong. My heart seems to have overgrown with that feeling of loneliness when my elder one was off to school. This time I was lil more like a mature mom.