Embrace me ….

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I wish I could hold you close to myself

I wish I could control you

Whenever I want you, you run away from me

Whenever I wish you never existed, you make me wait

As I want to grab you, you slip away from my hands

As I wish to loosen you, you hold a grip in my hands

You test my patience

You test my attitude

You test my love

You test my yearning

I wish it was easy to tame you

I wish to embrace however you are

Yet, you make it impossible for me

you smile at me while giving me surprises

you shut your eyes, as you give me sorrows after all the wait

you remain silent, when there is a need for you yet you don’t want to turn up

I get angry with you, I get irritated with you

yet you remain the same

pulsating up my patience at times

at times giving me the moments that I treasure the most

at times the pain that I need to carry the burden forever

I wonder how you are so much like this

even if I might turn you off or on, you are the same

O!! my dear time

Why you behave so weird….?

The Window

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As I sat near the window

browsing the outside world

from the small browser I had – my window

the world was unique from there

I never knew that I would fall in love with that small opening

in the mornings, the window opens me up to the bright sunlight

in the night it brings me the public that is off to sleep

and it will be just me and the night

the night ..with all it beauty

overlapping my thoughts

the window became the world to me

the four borders encapsulating a beautiful world in it

as if my window was the painting on my wall

which changes its pictures daily

it had sorrow, love, pain and happiness

every colorful was life captured in it

and gifted to me

As I sat and watched it forever

penning down my thoughts as I see them

hoping that one day I would be a picture in it too

the window showed me different phases of life

the hardworking, the idle, the old, the young and the newborns  

every individual had a story to tell.

Moving with tide

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As the sea washing the pebbles on the shore

wind whispering in my ears

the sea is tangling my hairs

and untangling my emotions

the pebbles are hurting my feet

yet the water is fondling the pain

the vast blue ocean is giving me the flow

I felt like am moving with the tide

like a boat which is going nowhere

but just floating in the ocean with the tide

the emotional turmoils which I cannot take in

I washed off with the sea

discovering where did I belong to

I felt I was barren

as if I was dried out

the sea was nourishing me

the whole me was changing

I felt like a plant grown out of a parched surface

I felt moist and my mind enjoyed the newborn placidity

the new me escaped from chaos and clutter

escaping from mediocrity I was enjoying the new turn-ons.