Alone

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Lonely me walking in the darkest paths of my life

judged and mistook by others

the eyes looked at me in question 

as if I did the life’s greatest crime for being alone

All I wanted to was to live freely

without being vague

I was clean like the wind 

pure like a rain drop

yet everyone tried to paint me as they liked

It was not easy to live among the people who

always looked at me as if I were a fallen woman

yet I put my head straight and walked towards my dreams

being alone was not a crime

as my dreams were never shattered

it was my aspiration that led me up to where I am now

To dream was my sin

To set my wings was my crime

yet I decided to walk away for good

I was never a head-turner, but being alone 

gained attention to me 

which was never the good one 

I never strayed away for my goals

my path was clear until I decided to turn down the evils

I resolved that life was not easy when we choose to ramble.

 

 

 

If love was easy, then it wouldn’t be love

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Silence is hope

at times it kills me

when my phone is silent

I wish it rings

and it is you on the other end of the line

When it beeps, my heart yearns to see your name on the display

your name brings a vibe to my soul

Your voice is my energizer would you ever miss me?

I know how much you would ever miss me?

you are my world like am yours

the wait is too long

yet I know in the end we are together

the pain is bearable

as it is worst if I ever lost you

 I decided to wait

even if it meant years and years

I know that the roots of our love were the deepest

hence no wind could obliterate.

I knew why I was scared to lose you,

As you were more important than anyone to me

the only comfort I gain is when your arms are  around me 

The way you look at me, as if I were the fortune in your life

makes me fall in love more and deeper

I want to walk with you in every walk of your life

and cherish all the adventure we would win and loose

As we grow older, I want to remember the days with you

and smile away into death with you

in your arms and be reborn for you again.

 

 

 

My world upside down

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I sat whimsically looking at my kids

I wonder from where to start

and where to stop

the mess around me

had turned my thoughts bushy and wild

I wondered was it just me?

or every other mom in the world like me

lost in wondering thought

feel like solitude is a bliss at times

I look at them, at times lost in my thoughts half way

as they keep doing their mischiefs

beguiling me and my lost mind

was I mad? or really lost the grip of my anger?

the world around me was moving faster

and I sat there idle watching it like a clown

one goes this way, while the other goes another way round

as I walk towards my daily chores

which keeps building up like a mountain overnight

the mom is me was lost in thoughts

when the little ones were gaining the momentum

and gained the control of my home

The soon I decided to ignore

the easier it was for me to relax

even though the world was upside down around me

Yet their smiles made me feel that the world was right around me.

A connection of souls

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We lived apart

We met

We loved

We exchanged 

We lived together even miles apart

We sustained the pains of loneliness 

We skim through the thoughts of being together

We accepted the journey of life

We wandered from place to place

yet we remained together forever

We were worlds apart but bonded by our hearts

The only survival instinct was the life beyond death

We promised to be together forever till death parts our way

yet we believed in a life after death 

where our souls met each other

to never ease out our ways

the affinity in our souls can never wash away even in the hardships we encounter

I promise to be yours forever even when the world rips us apart.

Because I believed that I found me in you 

It was revelation to my own soul 

that my reflection is seen in you

As with you I become whole than fallen pieces

You make my imperfection perfect 

And let me live in your eyes like an angel.

 

Love your Mom

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You are born to her

the cradle in her human form

nurtures you and caress you

you kick her, touch her and feel her

you reward her with sleepless nights forever

yet she is the one who always cares for you

you are born giving her the pain that is the greatest

yet you form the courage in her to suffer it

your little face delights her and shoots up a smile

even with teary eyes , you can make her smile

even if you agree or disagree, she will stand for you

even if you fight with her, she is the only one who cannot stop being with you

the love that began even before she sighted you

the love that never judges your color or physical appearance 

the love that stands universally

and stays forever

is the Mother’s love. 

Treasure it forever, as you cannot gain another Mother.

The wind whispered in my ears

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As I sat there up in the balcony

overlooking the farmlands

where the grass swayed in the soft breeze

and the cranes sat there waiting to catch their prey keenly waiting near the pond

the sight of birds flying away in the sky towards the other end

As I sat gaining the momentum of my pen to write down

whatever I felt into the diary of my heart

the soft breeze kissed my cheeks as it conveyed a message from my dear one

the wind snuggled within my hair

tying a knot on it as if it never want to wander away

the strong bond of love

it made with me

never letting me stay away

the whole nature was bridging the gap in between me and him

the wind carried the messages and whispered in my ears

the clouds created a camouflage of his image in the sky for me to see him

as if it was a reflection of him in the sky

the air brought me the scent of him

and placed it on my soul for me to feel him

Even if miles apart, All I could feel was him near me

my thoughts kept wandering around him

and he remained like a fresh flower in my heart.

Am I afraid of the dark ?

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Dark clouds are gathering

Is it frightening me?

No, it is not the darkness that frightens me

For me, darkness is my friend

it knows me and my deepest secrets

it shadows my worst nightmares and my sorrows

as it begins to dawn, the whole light brings a glare in my eyes

overshadowing the real me and others

darkness brings out the real people

the rain wipes out the fakeness and the original self is portrayed in my mind

I stood there sighing in front of the dark clouds

when it started to shower the bliss of rain

quenching the thirst of every living thing on the surface of the earth

there I stood soaked in the gush of water from the clouds

the rain make me fresh and pure

brushing me up like a pure droplet in the first mist.