The nights of emotions overflowing
the nights which witness my tears rolling
I wondered why all the emotions come cumulatively
Yet, I never stopped crying
The phase of my life which I want to throw away
the past that creeps into me when am happy
the past that has no connection with me now
I knew that was not the right place to stay
yet when am sad, my brain takes me for a jumbo ride
The ride, that gives me the glimpse of all the unhappy memories
the memories that constructed the new me
yet I remained the same deep inside
The new me could not overpower the older me
The whole me sneak out whenever it is time
to enjoy the freedom of living
It was hard to be imprisoned in a soul
veiling the genuine me, under the shades of delusive one
AM I confused?
I never knew as I lived the dual life, but loving with a heart of my true self.
Emotions crawling into me
Unable to control it
I am disturbed all over
Feeling of disgust and anger
Wondered what was causing me erupt
Uninterrupted tears rolling down
Missing the happiness spree
Emotional turmoils are causing distress
Anger bursting out of me
All I need was a break
Break me free from all norms
I decided to rethink
Rethink the world as the way I want
My heart began to calm down
Everything seemed to be placed rightly now
There was a hope awakening in me
I was right I felt
Finally the rainbow shined bright in my sky.
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The instant I hear you loud
I wondered why my eyes filled up
your words almost broke me up
The agony was beyond words to express
Was I tolerating the anger?
Was I being numb?
I thought over it thousand times
yet my heart never let the thought invade it
the flash of our fondness overwhelmed my heart
I realized that it was not my tolerance
but the words that I was scared to say
the words that might make you walk away from me
the pain of the thought shudders my heart
just letting me envisage on how much I adore you.
I crumbled like a leaf
fallen under the tree
saving itself from the sunlight
under the shade of the mighty tree
perished in the soil with numerous rains
burying and decaying close to the root
becoming the nutrients supporting its growth
I wish to be the leaf one day
living in you and then fallen under you
becoming the blood in your veins
and filling you with me all over
living again through you
witnessing our world once again.