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What if she says NO

What if she says NO?
What if she says she is not interested.
What if she says, she has done enough, it is time to stop.
What if she hates being in bed with you.
What if she says, she wants a better life.
What if her choices are not matching yours or her family’s.
What if she stops waking up early to feed all around.
What if she says, she is done crying, now it’s time to move on.
What if she needs space in a relationship.
What if she needs friends and time with them alone.
What if she wants to travel alone.
What if she is never like you expected ..but is just as she wanted.

You will call her selfish, a feminist..and whore…

Doesn’t she have an identity of her own?
She is what maketh her dreams.
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Self love ❤️❤️

Call me an advocate for self-love…
Yea…i always keep encouraging every other person around me to take some “me time”off.
It is indeed much needed when it comes to individuals.
In the past, due to my negligence i had sacrificed my me time and given it away for sake of others and in the end, it was just me who got blamed for.
So that’s when i decided to take some time off and spend doing something i just love to. It can be just reading, binge-watching some series like friends(maybe again n again), or a stress free time on my balcony gazing at the sky, or just cycle around with my friend.
These never harm anyone, but inturn benefits us in a great way. We all are always in a hustle amidst the bustle of life, wherein we see each and everyone around us, but what about us…just look at yourself.
Enjoy your good health, enjoy your book or even a bite of a meal or even a movie.
All those things you missed to glance at.
Hop around and dance away until your heart feels like flying.
Me time is essential, for keeping yourself happy and the people around you happy.
I keep suggesting this because i know i was broken once and then it took me loads of time to gather every broken piece of me to be who i am now.
Learn to love yourself again.
Self-love is a call to yourself.
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Who are you? Discover You

Thoughts are cluttered always in my mind. I do keep my brain idle, even when it is asleep. I taunt it crazy dreams, which I manifest in my heart or my brain.

Some days, I keep pondering about what am I? Who am I? What do I want in life? and much more .. as I said, my thoughts are always cluttered in my mind. I keep boggling it now and then.

I might do one thing today but may not want to do the same, the other day. Literally like a monkey mind, my mind jumps from one thought to the other, sometimes even my words find it hard to keep up with my speed of thinking. I keep making mistakes and mistakes all the time be it for profession writing or my ones. It is hard for me to concentrate.

My writing is never accepted at home or by anyone I love, they say it is not good or maybe my thoughts are much more rebellious as always, which is why I was never accepted from the very beginning of my life. I always had a different taste consider people or food or be it anything. It was hard for me to find fault with something that others considered a sin or simple as a ‘bad’.

My thinking was always adrift from any others in the family. The rebellious me reside in me and peeps out now and then. It never keeps anyone happy around me. But I chose to do it, as I can’t betray my inner self.

Moreover choosing me at times is important to show I love myself.

Sometimes we all are juggling between so many choices. Let’s say for example a book. In my home, as people are narrow-minded ( not to a greater extent, but yes limited), people think that reading such books like Fifty shades of grey and all is not civilized, so they all consider my writing to be a lil uncivilized or more like a barbarianism. I had tried my best to cope with it, but no response from my inner self, it told me you are cheating yourself. And it was much more hurting. Because I loved being loyal to my writings, else what’s the point in it.

Reading all kinds of books, writing what comes to my mind is what I like. If I keep a filter in it every time I do it, a piece of a particle of me is lost in something which I cannot regain.

I like being honest in my writing, the more I try to camouflage it with some restrictions, it is going to be fake even more. And the readers will never understand the true emotions in it.

Like writing, is my relationship with the people. The more I fake it, the more painful it is gonna be.

Most of the people around me, try to utilize me and my potential, and yes cant blame, its a human tendency. But again, when i am in a good mood, i don’t look into that part, but when I am blown apart, that’s when everything falls rightly into my mind and I feel like a fool being utilized.

Literally at home, I write hiding from others, because for them it’s me wasting time, and none realize how much it helped me. Few years, back I was battling with depression and as always, I regained my mind. Being experienced at falling into depression and then reviving from it. My life was never easy, though most of them never know.. Blame me for all the foolishness though( as per others).

Life is a hurdle, it gives you a multitude of options.

As you read across, this, you realise, today I am not so happy, because, I am scribbling everything that is coming up in my mind. These are my uncontrollable thoughts and it is a mess.

But again coming to the point, choosing what you always want to do keeps you happy and engaged. It gives your life a meaning, which no one can bring about.

I have seen many people not just ladies, but men too, stuck with things in life and unable to do things what they want. They not only lose what they passionate about but also a piece of themselves that they dearly posses.

Sometimes, take time out and then do what you like in your life. Do not waste it, else on your deathbed, you come to realise, you have done nothing for yourself.

Doing or pursuing what you like the most, is going to gift you, the unwrapped version of you. Trust ME ! you will.

Take the call, and feel it.

You might hurt many, but you are not hurting yourself and that is important.

Choose you sometimes.

A pinch of happiness to your soul can be given only by you.

All the best folks. !!!

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How life in this pandemic changing me ?

Ever since 2020 began, life is not just going normal. We are trying to adapt to new things, something is changing but some remain the same.

Ever thought, that one single thing arrives and the whole world changes drastically. If you are looking into the negative sides you might still stumble upon a few more to think upon. But why go for negativity, when we have loads of positivity to search for.

The Beginning

I quite remember the early December in 2019 when in news they showed about corona virus and how people were suffering in China. At that moment like any other, I too thought it was fake or something, not gonna be arriving in India. But then to my shock, everything began to change tremendously. This deadly virus arrived in the city, it created panic and tension. I remember the very last day I was sending my daughters to school, with all those hand sanitizers and all… It is all like yesterday.

This virus, burst like hell and broke my lil one’s best graduation event too. I just hated those things. But what to do, have to live .. than be saddened upon these things.

Ever since March, we all were just indoors, not going anywhere but staying under the same roof for a longer and longer time. Sometimes, time begins to eat our patience, as we all are never being together in space like this. It was indeed difficult.

New habits, new things and much more.

I was scared that my kids are gonna be TV addicts and I am gonna be much more stout and plump that I wont be able to get out of that door. Panic dreams and scary dreams haunted me day and night.

Never knew we all could survive these 7 months like this and gonna survive much more…

The first few days went well.. but then work, household work, kids boredom everything began to eat my patience a lot. Moreover doing nothing, my weight also began to revolt. And over this, the news about the spread was much more frightening. All I could wonder was how people are so careless…

It is truly said that when you don’t feel good from within, the whole world outside you is also gonna tumble down.

Hence What I did was…

The very first thing I did was, completely take myself away from this news and media, which was anyways not doing them justice and creating panic more.

Once I did this, I was far away from collapsing.

The next thing I did was focus on myself… I started to work out, eat right and focus on being a healthy mind and body. In this venture, I included my kids too, started doing fun workouts with them, which in turn helped me and them and I got plenty of quality time with them, which I don’t say at all.

Decided to read more books, hence brought the same. Even indulged in making my kids find healthy reading habits too. Moreover, it helped my daughters to improve themselves in this period.

Vacation which prolonged a lot, we utilized teaching our mother tongue to my kids, which again came out well maybe not exemplary but yes Good for me.

We went for walks together, spend quality time playing together caroms, badminton, and much more… which was indeed fun. It kept my brain and heart happier. Even I got the opportunity to learn cycling and include it in my healthy regime to continue my journey to fitness dedicatedly.

The important thing we did was sticking to a routine, no matter its holiday or not, we ensured we get up early, finish everything on time and then sit to work or study or even for being free. This helped us in a great deal and saved much of my time.

So overall, this pandemic brought me so many things in surplus with my dear ones and that makes me happier. Although there are other things I miss, then we all are in a virtual world, things are turning well. At least we can work remotely, be in touch with friends who were long gone from our life for a while, learn new things and also be around our kids and watch them grow.

So If I put everything together:

  1. Self-love and self-motivation.
  2. Fix a routine.
  3. Be with family.
  4. Count your blessings
  5. Fix your time and schedule to ensure you get plenty of time free or to do what you love.
  6. Sleep well.. sleep enough not too much.
  7. Be happy.
  8. Take up a new hobby or get back to your favourite niche.
  9. Be healthy.
  10. Be positive.

It is rightly said,

Everything is a blessing in disguise

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Does Menstrual cup get lost in the vagina?

Dont worry, Menstrual cup did not get lost in the vagina.. as for me.

Like all others, even I was using sanitary pads ever since I had periods, hence was indeed reluctant to try something new. Even when the pads used to quite itchy to my tender skin, i used to continue using the same. I remember once in Swiss, i had to use Tampons, but that itself was a hard task for me. It took me half an hour to find the holes :P.

Trust me… until then, I never knew, we females have such a complicated body. Imagine hours spend inside the toilet, just to find the hole to insert the menstrual cup took up my patience.

So Why I began to use Menstrual cup?

Not long ago, yea just years before I knew this menstrual cup ever existed through my mom and so many women bloggers and vloggers who have shared so many informative things. But thanks to my laziness, I never bothered to try it until last year. I ended up buying a menstrual cup, which looked too big for me. I kept looking at its size, wondering, how I will fit it inside my body.

And Like always, I just ended up dumping it in my cupboard, because of my lack of patience and more like a reluctance to let something foreign enter my body. Months went by and i brought one more menstrual cup, assuming that I was wrong about the size I purchased, but again did not use it at all.

Finally, my bestie, who comes as a saviour in all the situation came up suddenly, like a lightning and explained to me and shared her joy of using the menstrual cup. And yes, her words are like words from heaven for me. So I decided to give a try again. And this time a lil wholeheartedly.

After a long discussion with her and burdening her with all my silly thoughts which she patiently answers always, I brought another menstrual cup ( same as hers, just to ensure I don’t fail this time ).

Before the periods arrived I sat with my mom, discussing the pros and cons of the same. And yes pros were indeed weighing higher. We belong to a small village in Kerala, hence waste management is not that prominent, and, these sanitary pads, i had to burn in the backyard which was never a good thing to do. So mostly I was little reluctant to travel to my hometown these days. And even here in Bangalore, it is not easy, I felt, hence decided to give a try for no waste menstrual time. This again affirmed my thoughts on using Menstrual cup.

Finally, Day Arrived.

Since it was the first time, I had to mentally prepare my self. I went in with the cup and decided to give a try. First, two-three attempts went in vain, as my mind was repelling and hence my body. Almost one moment I was about to give up and use the sanitary pad again.. but then I decided to give a final try.

And yea Eureka. !!!! I did it.

It was comfortably inserted into my vagina… And I was comfortable better than I expected. I just came out of the bathroom and immediately message my bestie lot many thanks.

So Now the hurdle time :

Insertion drama over, now how to remove was yet another though stirring my mind. But actually, it wasn’t hard as I expected it should be. Moreover, my mind wanted to push it out sooner than getting it inside.

Later my first day went well. The next day since the flow was higher, i had to be careful, but I did spill it when i took it out. Hence if you are trying for the first time, ensure that you change the cup multiple times when you have a heavy flow.

Minimum 4-5 hours is ideal, it is better to change and wash and then use again after a couple of hours.

At first, it was indeed difficult for me to even going to the toilet, but then gradually I was comfortable and used to. Now I can say, I am living with it. With the second period cycle, I was so comfy, that I do it with lightning speed.

So here are a few things that I felt, it is important to share with you all ladies :

  1. You might not get it in the first attempt.
  2. Never give up, it is not rocket science.
  3. The cup is not going to get vanished into the vagina ..so chill.
  4. Use the right cup that suits you, hence buy it carefully. I would recommend U shaped ones, as they are ideal to lock in when inserting.
  5. No leakage .. so it’s perfect. hence no stain on panties. ( something I worry a lot) . Yes, I did use a sanitary pad, for a couple of times, but then now I guess I don’t need them now.
  6. I could sleep peacefully at night, as no worries of overflowing.
  7. For Some the stem might be prickly, in that case , read that you can trim it too to suit your need.
  8. Going to the loo, won’t be a problem, Do give a try.
  9. Make sure, you clean it with warm water well.
  10. When it comes to folding the menstrual cup, for me the C folding didn’t work, hence I recommend.
This Is Exactly How You Should Be Folding Your Menstrual Cup | Bloom

10. Have loads of patience with the first try . And it’s not dirty, it’s hygienic. Think it that way before you use.

I hope this will help you.

A change is inevitable, when you can see, that it is ideal for you and nature. So never hesitate on the same. 

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