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She was chained …

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The busy roads

Vehicles running past here and there

everyone busy in mobiles or reading newspapers

the world around her was revolving faster

faster than her heart beat

every second flashed through

the time was ticking quickly

she wanted to hold a second in her hand

and sweep through every microsecond in it

living through the moments

she wished she could live every second with him

looking into his eyes, feeling his warmth

forget the rushing world around them

just them in the whole world

where they could love and be one again

none has time, even when they can find time

she battled among the loneliness and the crowded world

emotions caused a huge shadow where she resisted herself to be one among the crowd

she was all alone, even when thousands were holding her hands

she thought it was her inner self, pulling her away from everything around her

she smiled hiding her tears, battling with the tears rolling out of her eyes

the feelings were crushed under the feets of others

who knew her, but never realized her dreams

she dreamt of running away throwing away all the shackles of emotions

but the chains were stronger, that it wounded her soul, more than her body

the wounds never healed, it bled and bled enough that she forgot the pain

as her body was lost in the space

She looked out of the window for the hope

a hope that let her live the afflictions

the agony of being alive till the hope arrives one day to revive her

her soul waited for the moment to liberate from her tortured mortal

she stayed up all along with contemplation.

As she lay there

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As she lay there gazing at the beautiful spotless blue sky. All she could feel was the wetness of the green grass holding her firmly to the ground. The grass was wet and smelling like earthly things. She could feel the softness of the leaves and the wetness of the sand with her fingers. She lied there gazing the beauty up there and feeling the nature with her fingers down there. She was so close to the ground that she could see small ants walking by her side carrying things. She felt like her eyes were some magnifying glass. She wished to go with these hardworking ants and see their kingdom. Some wishes are better to be wished and not fulfilled.

As she looked up, simultaneously three four jets were cutting across their path in the sky, making some patterns in the sky. It was like someone drew white lines on the dark blue board on the wall. The smoky path created up there was dissipating gradually, soaking into the blue sky slowly and becoming invisible. 

She was playing with the grass, whose leaves were thinner than her fingers, she slowly rubs the leaves, feeling the coldness of dew drops. She felt like she landed on a lovely spring.Her bare feet was feeling the grass beneath. She felt that all her nerves ending in the bottom of her feet were enjoying the thrust of the grass. It was like some reiki treatment. 

She closed her eyes, trying to feel which nerves of her feet were getting pampered. She felt like the whole earth was cuddling her, feeling her and slowly crawling up onto her, taking every inch of her body under their control. The grass was covering her legs hands and moving to her belly button as if to nailing herself down to the mother earth. 

She lay still, feeling the creeping of the lovely hands of the earth.She lay there with her eyes closed and feeling the touch.And slowly and slowly, the creeping went on, tickling her as it passes by every spot on her body to reach her belly button.

AHHHHHHHH !!! NO NO NO!!!!!!!LET Me Get up 

She giggled and woke up from her dreams, it was not mother nature, but her Lil kids, who were crawling on to her, and tickling her all the time. She cuddled them, hugged them, tickled them and they all hee-haw together happily.

She knew this was her happy world. 

Memories

 

Can anyone memorize all things that happened in their life ? Am sure that most powerful memories out of them will be the worst and the extremely happiest ones , where we almost had a rush of adrenaline. 🙂

Its not that some people ( especially women , who memorizes dates too ) have strong memory power, its just that , they all have strong feelings attached to it. How does parents never forget their kids birthday , or even their exact feeling when their kids were born . its because they have the strongest memory of the things happened.

When there is an interest and an enthusiasm to do any thing in life, that memory stays forever with us. Even when we work harder to reach our goal, that brings a special happiness in us, how can someone forget that?

Its the same with heartbreaking memories too, mostly we humans can memorize all worst feelings rather than the best in our life.Its up to us to how we deal with worst memories, either avoid such things to happen again , or else , learn from it.

Sometimes remembering is easier ,and forgetting them are tougher. 🙂

 

“Love is like the wind, you can’t see it but you can feel it.”

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My lovely Valentines day started with a my sweet lil daughter’s “Good Morning Mama” . Nothing is more important to me than her lovely smile.It really makes my day.

She wanted me to sleep more, cuddling  next to her and that is something i love to do. Valentines day have become just like any other normal day. I don’t see any thing different  around me, because everyday for me is special and i live every moment am given.

Back in India, I had seen many couples roaming around the city with so many roses and chocolates.But the new generation love , has nothing so pure in it, its just passing fantasies, everyone forgets the day and move on to the next person. 

I have seen older couples , walking hand in hand, loving each other, caring , its so beautiful to see , and then I truly feel that love can be forever , if there is true form of love and care exist.Love gives life a special meaning , it gives us the courage and strength to live , it makes it worth living.We can overcome all fears , when someone believes in you. We can live the life as we are , without changing ourselves for someone, if someone truly loves you, they will never want you to change  , but just be the same and love you more and more with all the flaws you have.

I always feel myself lucky that my love is always with me, whatever am , and whatever I do . Living with all the differences together and sharing everything, happiness and sorrows , being with each other .When am sad , i just need a perfect smile and a word of encouragement , and who else knows that better than my love.I just can’t imagine a life without him and of course my lovely lil girl.Nothing matters more ,when you have someone loving you truly and wholeheartedly.Life is never easy , and when you are in love, things are smoother and every soul connected to it has to work through it , to make it worthy living.

Love is beyond words , even silence speaks louder than words.

“The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space.” 
― Marilyn Monroe