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MY LIFE IS THE CANVAS, WHICH THEY COLOURED WELL

This week we were given pictures and had to write on that basis. I was given this:

And it brought me thoughts on my own gems – my daughters.

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My world upside down

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I sat whimsically looking at my kids

I wonder from where to start

and where to stop

the mess around me

had turned my thoughts bushy and wild

I wondered was it just me?

or every other mom in the world like me

lost in wondering thought

feel like solitude is a bliss at times

I look at them, at times lost in my thoughts half way

as they keep doing their mischiefs

beguiling me and my lost mind

was I mad? or really lost the grip of my anger?

the world around me was moving faster

and I sat there idle watching it like a clown

one goes this way, while the other goes another way round

as I walk towards my daily chores

which keeps building up like a mountain overnight

the mom is me was lost in thoughts

when the little ones were gaining the momentum

and gained the control of my home

The soon I decided to ignore

the easier it was for me to relax

even though the world was upside down around me

Yet their smiles made me feel that the world was right around me.

The little girl wept silently…yet none noticed

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The little girl sat at her desk

silently browsing through the pages of the book in front of her

even though her mind was not even letting her read

she just gazed at the book

Her mind was with the sounds of the kids playing outside

she cursed her self-being locked up in the room for hours and hours of studying

she felt exhausted, but her parents never bothered to even ask her

They stressed her from point to point

on each and everything

they wanted a perfect one, not a good one

she felt she was tortured,

she felt being snatched

she felt being lonely

the sadness on her face was neglected

to make her perfect, her parents quarrelled and competed

little did they realise that they are hurting her from inside

she wept inside

her silence was taken as being dumb and useless

little did her parents knew she was causing invisible scars on her soul

the little girl wept from inside, hoping that one day they would realise

what these scars have turned her into….

All she wanted little play and little time to enjoy

All she requested silently was that

She revolted, but none noticed

the little heart bled.

Like an eagle, she soared

Bald Eagle in Flight

She had the vision of an eagle

like an eagle she soared high up yet her focus was on the land below

her ears were sharp and her senses were at its best

she could feel the wind and the danger coming to her

Like a mother bird, protecting her baby birds

she had the focus on her kids

she wished she could hold them under her wings

away from all the troubles

yet it was impossible

she need to let them go

let them fly away

Even with the fear in her heart and eyes showing it off

she left them to learn the world

with a heavy heart

she knew they would stumble upon rocks

fall and fall and get hurt too

yet they will learn to live

she let them learn, by staying far away

watching them all along, letting them explore the world around

She focussed on them, even when her presence was far beyond their notice

her love for her kids w as beyond one’s imagination

vast like the universe and deep like the ocean

Obsession – being a mom

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Take me by your hands

let me walk with you

for the rest of your life

she looked down and held those tiny hands,

who want to walk along with her

those hands meant a world to her

the soft and tenderness of the hand, was her strength

to fulfill and accomplish her journey

she never knew that she would be leading the path to the life she wanted

even though, she walked in front holding those tiny fingers

it was those tiny hands, that gave her strength to move on

the hands that held her firmly,

and knew would never leave her side

it might not be the strongest hands that held her…

but the willingness was always there

and that led her to live

live life to the fullest

none could beat the vision and the love she had for her children

she can walk miles, without even measuring the time and distance

never getting tired or judged by those lovely eyes

the only love that is unconditional and true in the whole world

the trust, that is blind

the care, that is given forever

the bliss of being a mom

~~the bliss of being a mom~~~

What the beach took from her

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In the far end, visible to his eyes, there she stood close to the tree, overlooking the magnificent beach ahead. He knew she loved the way the waves caressed the sand. She compared it to the act of making love, teasing whenever she spoke to him.
 
She was lost in her thoughts, at times smiling at something. She didn’t want anyone, she could find solace even in the roars of the beach and the cool sand. The evening was splendid, she couldn’t take her eyes off the sea and the birds flying. In the far end, all she could see was the waves rushing onto the shore and then carrying away everything from the sand but leaving at least some treasures.
 
Her kids were enjoying the waves, she saw them picking up the treasures that the sea left for them. The sun was setting down, the reddishness was filling the sky. She kept looking at the impeccable beauty of nature, the winds caressing and tickling her soul as it passed by. She felt being young again, the soft breeze was kissing her nose, lips and her neck, she felt like the wind teasing her like the first love.
 
She left her hair open, enjoyed the touch of the wind on the strands of her hair, her soul, raised her hands, stretched herself, and then slowly as if releasing her soul, fell onto the sand. She felt like soaking herself on the sandy beach. She lay down there and felt the whole beach on herself the sands the shells everything. It was like she got plunged into the soft layer of the mother earth. She lay there and watched the sun go down.
 
As soon as the sun touched the horizon, she stood up, walked to the waters, and let the waves gulp her. She stood there watching the waves come and capture her. There was a time when she wished the waves took her away, but now she didn’t.
 
She wanted to be here with her love and wanted to feel the life. She felt soaked and drenched with the salty beach water. She looked for her kids, ran to them, and held their hands and ran into the beach, She played with them for hours, something in her whole life she will never ever get bored off.She realized being a mom had made her think more of others than herself.
 
She drowned her selfishness in the beach and took only the selfless one along with her as she returned home.She wanted to be the desired by others, rather than a need.

As she lay there

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As she lay there gazing at the beautiful spotless blue sky. All she could feel was the wetness of the green grass holding her firmly to the ground. The grass was wet and smelling like earthly things. She could feel the softness of the leaves and the wetness of the sand with her fingers. She lied there gazing the beauty up there and feeling the nature with her fingers down there. She was so close to the ground that she could see small ants walking by her side carrying things. She felt like her eyes were some magnifying glass. She wished to go with these hardworking ants and see their kingdom. Some wishes are better to be wished and not fulfilled.

As she looked up, simultaneously three four jets were cutting across their path in the sky, making some patterns in the sky. It was like someone drew white lines on the dark blue board on the wall. The smoky path created up there was dissipating gradually, soaking into the blue sky slowly and becoming invisible. 

She was playing with the grass, whose leaves were thinner than her fingers, she slowly rubs the leaves, feeling the coldness of dew drops. She felt like she landed on a lovely spring.Her bare feet was feeling the grass beneath. She felt that all her nerves ending in the bottom of her feet were enjoying the thrust of the grass. It was like some reiki treatment. 

She closed her eyes, trying to feel which nerves of her feet were getting pampered. She felt like the whole earth was cuddling her, feeling her and slowly crawling up onto her, taking every inch of her body under their control. The grass was covering her legs hands and moving to her belly button as if to nailing herself down to the mother earth. 

She lay still, feeling the creeping of the lovely hands of the earth.She lay there with her eyes closed and feeling the touch.And slowly and slowly, the creeping went on, tickling her as it passes by every spot on her body to reach her belly button.

AHHHHHHHH !!! NO NO NO!!!!!!!LET Me Get up 

She giggled and woke up from her dreams, it was not mother nature, but her Lil kids, who were crawling on to her, and tickling her all the time. She cuddled them, hugged them, tickled them and they all hee-haw together happily.

She knew this was her happy world.