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MY LIFE IS THE CANVAS, WHICH THEY COLOURED WELL

This week we were given pictures and had to write on that basis. I was given this:

And it brought me thoughts on my own gems – my daughters.

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I remained…

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Photo by Kat Jayne on Pexels.com

 

“let us break away”

it was his last words…

unknown to him was that,

he had already broken me into pieces,

the moment he deiced to disconnect with me…

words became numb to my ears,

the world seemed to blink away from my eyes..

but you remained…

until you walked away

fading into space

that never brought you back..

And I remained there…

knowing you might never return to me…

like the shore awaiting the waves…

I stayed like a barren land…

for the drops to quench the thirst.

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enough of enough….

Am scared to open up

am I letting myself out

The more I am close to one

the more they wander away

wherein am unable to stop them

I shackle myself in the life 

wherein asking them to stop by for me is inevitable

I let myself cry silently

the pain is inseparable from me

I live with the pain 

burying it deep down

until death takes me away.

 

 

Battling with my heart

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I sat beside the window

watching the trees battling with the wind

I felt numb as I knew my mind was battling the same inside me

the battle keeps on until one looses

but for me, it was just me and my soul fighting

I didn;t know whom to support

when one fought for my happiness and another one happiness of others

one was for him, and one was against him

the battling kept on going powerful

yet none succeeded

I knew that the one my soul ever wanted was him

it never stopped, and stood up the best way

As he held me strongly, the battle slowly favoured him

I knew, in the end, my happiness would be chosen, as it is the destiny.

I walked upon my sacrifices and the pain that I buried in my soul

to reach for him, as he held my hands

I felt like I was taken up to heaven

his eyes looked upon mine as if I was a princess to him

As he kissed me, I felt all my bits fallen away into the thin air

The only thing left was just me with the one I loved.

Her choices were hard ….

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She wept all night

each night treasuring the fact that she can never let go

the pain of going away from her loved ones

the agony she took up to live on her sacrifices

she couldn’t just let go off

her moan was just known to her

none knew that there were scars behind those smiles

her eyes could shine brightly even if her tears filled in

her heart could pound frantically, yet portray a calm effect

she hid the fear of losing whatever she wanted

the ones she treasured on the lump of her sacrifices

she did for the love she had for others

being caring caused her move away like an unanchored ship to an unknown destination

she knew that she would be the one who is in misery, yet her love for everyone let her loose all choices

she waited for how much ever she can, silently suffering

she knew she has to live with the fact that she cared more than she loved

all she could do was cry, but her tears remained hidden

the unknown world thought that she was strong to hold on

yet she only knew she was like a candle that melts in the heat

she could never choose her relationships as it was never in her hand.

all she did was wait…..

She ran to him …..

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Her eyes were teary

her heart was beating faster

she was running with pain

everyone looked at her

but she ran unnoticing all the questioning eyes

she ran ferociously to that direction

the eyes following her had thousands of questions

many whispers were humming around her

yet she was least bothered

her eyes were focussed

there was no reason in her mind that could stop her

every reason she collated was forcing her to take a step forward 

she ran like an untamed animal

towards the darkness of the forest

that was where he disappeared finally

she never knew how much she loved him until it happened

the moment she realized the uncertainty of meeting him

her eyes betrayed her and tears rolled down her cheeks

As she closed her eyes, she could feel his breath closer to her face

she felt as if he was hugging her from behind

cuddling her soul

as she opened she knew what she has lost

her tears couldn’t resist, her legs never stopped

she ran as fast as she can towards infinity

the only belief she had, was that he might be waiting there for her

opening up his arms towards her

with all the love for her in his eyes

she knew he would embrace her

she long for the moment to be in his arms and kiss him all over

the moments they ever cherished when they were together

As she escaped from all the questioning eyes,

she reached the space where the stars shined above, the trees waved and the grasses paved the way

there he stood awaiting her.

Hope is the key to our puzzle

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The pain is intense

I don’t know how to convey it to you

at times I thought Why should I put you through this pain

yet my silly heart is not convinced

did I pull you down from a peaceful life

I kept thinking, yet my silly heart denied

the pain of being away was so immense that

I felt dying was easier

I wish I could be near you forever

Life played a gamble with our lives

keeping us apart as two but as one single soul

locked up in the dilemma of love

you made my life simpler

with less complicated thoughts

yet we are moving in a puzzle

I wish I knew the key to the puzzle

and lock ourselves in a beautiful life together

hope is our key maker

with the hope I know one day we will be together.