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The Neglected One

 

Her happiness never knew how to be celebrated;

her sorrows never knew, what it meant to outburst;

all she did was compress everything within her,

her dreams never went beyond her thoughts,

her pain never touched anyone’s heart;

she was like the untouched, neglected one ;

her agony, perished her into a deep depression,

curbing her from everything that kept her happy,

the moment she felt she could move on;

the roots of her despondency just pricked her too hard,

hard enough to bleed her within;

her eyes were always filled, just enough to contain;

the difficulty to let her tears overflow her fake smile,

was indeed the hardest she could.

In spite of all these, she moved ahead,

burying her agony, and masked herself into a smile,

that could deceive the world.

 

 

To a piece unknown in me

Why it pains…

when i never took it deeply…

all I know is that I am falling apart.

be it here .. or there..

for a moment, i feel like i am nowhere existing…

some undefined pain, crawling into my mind…

eyes drying away as if no tears to roll out;

my soul is on a journey of unquenchable thirst;

unknown to me, and just me;

I strayed away, to an unknown mirage;

which took away my peace and my breath away,

and all it remained was, the defeated soul.

 

 

 

 

MY LIFE IS THE CANVAS, WHICH THEY COLOURED WELL

This week we were given pictures and had to write on that basis. I was given this:

And it brought me thoughts on my own gems – my daughters.

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I remained…

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Photo by Kat Jayne on Pexels.com

 

“let us break away”

it was his last words…

unknown to him was that,

he had already broken me into pieces,

the moment he deiced to disconnect with me…

words became numb to my ears,

the world seemed to blink away from my eyes..

but you remained…

until you walked away

fading into space

that never brought you back..

And I remained there…

knowing you might never return to me…

like the shore awaiting the waves…

I stayed like a barren land…

for the drops to quench the thirst.

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enough of enough….

Am scared to open up

am I letting myself out

The more I am close to one

the more they wander away

wherein am unable to stop them

I shackle myself in the life 

wherein asking them to stop by for me is inevitable

I let myself cry silently

the pain is inseparable from me

I live with the pain 

burying it deep down

until death takes me away.

 

 

Battling with my heart

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I sat beside the window

watching the trees battling with the wind

I felt numb as I knew my mind was battling the same inside me

the battle keeps on until one looses

but for me, it was just me and my soul fighting

I didn;t know whom to support

when one fought for my happiness and another one happiness of others

one was for him, and one was against him

the battling kept on going powerful

yet none succeeded

I knew that the one my soul ever wanted was him

it never stopped, and stood up the best way

As he held me strongly, the battle slowly favoured him

I knew, in the end, my happiness would be chosen, as it is the destiny.

I walked upon my sacrifices and the pain that I buried in my soul

to reach for him, as he held my hands

I felt like I was taken up to heaven

his eyes looked upon mine as if I was a princess to him

As he kissed me, I felt all my bits fallen away into the thin air

The only thing left was just me with the one I loved.

Her choices were hard ….

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She wept all night

each night treasuring the fact that she can never let go

the pain of going away from her loved ones

the agony she took up to live on her sacrifices

she couldn’t just let go off

her moan was just known to her

none knew that there were scars behind those smiles

her eyes could shine brightly even if her tears filled in

her heart could pound frantically, yet portray a calm effect

she hid the fear of losing whatever she wanted

the ones she treasured on the lump of her sacrifices

she did for the love she had for others

being caring caused her move away like an unanchored ship to an unknown destination

she knew that she would be the one who is in misery, yet her love for everyone let her loose all choices

she waited for how much ever she can, silently suffering

she knew she has to live with the fact that she cared more than she loved

all she could do was cry, but her tears remained hidden

the unknown world thought that she was strong to hold on

yet she only knew she was like a candle that melts in the heat

she could never choose her relationships as it was never in her hand.

all she did was wait…..