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Embrace me ….

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I wish I could hold you close to myself

I wish I could control you

Whenever I want you, you run away from me

Whenever I wish you never existed, you make me wait

As I want to grab you, you slip away from my hands

As I wish to loosen you, you hold a grip in my hands

You test my patience

You test my attitude

You test my love

You test my yearning

I wish it was easy to tame you

I wish to embrace however you are

Yet, you make it impossible for me

you smile at me while giving me surprises

you shut your eyes, as you give me sorrows after all the wait

you remain silent, when there is a need for you yet you don’t want to turn up

I get angry with you, I get irritated with you

yet you remain the same

pulsating up my patience at times

at times giving me the moments that I treasure the most

at times the pain that I need to carry the burden forever

I wonder how you are so much like this

even if I might turn you off or on, you are the same

O!! my dear time

Why you behave so weird….?

I miss you

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The plight of missing is the aftereffect of being in love

Wait becomes more painful

Patience becomes the virtue

The words ” I miss you” keeps murmuring in every thought until the souls meet

the dreams becomes the painful truth

the wait becomes a joy too at times

the excitement of being together for even a moment was a profound joy

the joy that had a countless pleasure

She cold drive him crazier

Her eyes spoke thousands of hidden emotions

the magic of the hugs and smiles

the aroma of his presence that could be maddening

the magnetism in the air that keep their souls attracted to each other like opposite poles

the gravitational pull, that is uncontrollable

Yet, the wait made it possible for them to live through the moments

the wait was their call to the patience

yet they could fight it with lots of love

the wait is never over…..

the more they loved, the wait increased ………..

more and more ….bonding them forever again…….

the truth about parenting

I have read many times that with two kids parenting is no more parenting but a match where we are a referee.

As a kid, I used to watch some wrestling shows on TV and have laughed at the referee who gets smashed by these fighters. Seems Lil did I knew I was going to take the same place in my life further as a mum. 😛

Everything used to be lol easier with one kid, and one fine day I decided to take up some more challenges as I was running out of things to do. That is when I was gifted by Lord with this Lil one again.

Being mum again was always the prettiest and the happiest thing in the world for me. As she is growing up, my days are filled with challenges every day something new.

Testing my patience to the core has become her ultimate fun thing to do in the house. I wonder at times am I really a mum or some maniac running around the house .

Really I remember the times when I was just a mum of my Lil princess , other than the occasional blowing out sessions , I was Lil normal. Now the normal ‘me’ is gone and nowhere to be seen.

Over time it is just me running around with her, or behind her.

Now I wish I get those people in hand who said, you can manage one more kid, as my elder one was a girl and especially a silent girl.

Seems like my elder one too got infected with the madness in me, she has forgotten to play peacefully.

At times our house remains silent, certainly, when my tornado is sleeping ,that is when we realise that we have some normalcy in the house.

Hope things change as she grows up in a better way.

Still, the fun is fun . I love being a mum , who at times can yell around and enjoy the authority.

It is not the fun ,we are creating memories in all these we do .

 

Its weaning time ….patience

Its the toughest decision to take .

I was not sure how to do , as I didn’t go through this earlier.

I was confused how things will go, how she will manage .

I was upset to see her cry and asking me for milk.

But one fine morning , I decided , instead of thinking , its time for her , and I kept trying for days and days , everyone helped me , and I was happy that am not alone. I had to keep my heart hard as a rock. 

She kept crying and crying but suddenly at one point she understood whatever I said , atleast thats what I believed . I guess she understood from my teary eyes and the low words that Mom has no more to give . Hope she forgives me and adapt to other things. 

I know its a stage in every kids life , but for me, its only mine ,my special one , I cried , I couldn’t hold my tear when she was crying , still I had to do it. I kept trying and trying , did not want to loose heart or my patience and do y very best. I kept telling myself , its good for her , am doing as best as i can , I know she won’t starve , she has enough outside but ofcourse not as good as mine. 

I wanted to do so that was final, no more thoughts should cloud my determination . And finally overcame my thoughts and everything went well, though its tiring and tough , we loose our patience couple of times . At times its my elder one who helps me out in dealing with her sister, she keeps telling her , that when we grow up , no more milk there, trying her best to convince her .

Finally , now when she herself says “mama, milk over ” , I feel so sad , but , she hugs me ,as if to tell me ” mama, don’t worry am fine , don’t cry ” .

I love my daughters in the way they support me, love you both always . 

Uncertainity

 

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Sometimes life takes us in a long journey and makes us stand at point , where we are totally in a uncertainty ,its like either run away or fight it , or just leave everything to God.What do we choose leads to our destiny.

 How to live though such circumstances is a tough thing , how much ever you are advised you tend to behave as the heart says. How much ever we try to do something as planned it all ends up in a total mess, but everything has a reason for its own happening.

At a certain point, we feel like dropping everything and running away from the whole world, blaming all the people around us and many things which doesn’t have  any connection to us, strange but true.Running away is never a way out ,I learned it.

Situations teach us many things  about taking life lightly, slowly and waiting with loads of patience pays you the best.Whatever happens  , happens for a reason , just like sun rises , always , it takes hours , so for life to take up a change we need to wait.