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My world upside down

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I sat whimsically looking at my kids

I wonder from where to start

and where to stop

the mess around me

had turned my thoughts bushy and wild

I wondered was it just me?

or every other mom in the world like me

lost in wondering thought

feel like solitude is a bliss at times

I look at them, at times lost in my thoughts half way

as they keep doing their mischiefs

beguiling me and my lost mind

was I mad? or really lost the grip of my anger?

the world around me was moving faster

and I sat there idle watching it like a clown

one goes this way, while the other goes another way round

as I walk towards my daily chores

which keeps building up like a mountain overnight

the mom is me was lost in thoughts

when the little ones were gaining the momentum

and gained the control of my home

The soon I decided to ignore

the easier it was for me to relax

even though the world was upside down around me

Yet their smiles made me feel that the world was right around me.

“Makeshift” your aspirations

I remember the time when I started my career in Testing , everything was good and fine. I felt I enjoyed it too and of course learning a lot was an integral part of it, but again I felt I was lacking something. Again another year went by, I had more responsibilities on my personal front as well as official. Yet ! the void in work continued. The joy was dead on the job other than few good friends nothing just motivated me to go to work.

Finally, I did leave and was lost in Parenthood. A new way of life changed all the perspective. The thought of leaving for a job ,without seeing my kid for hours was indeed painful so, instead of taking up the pain, I just thought stopped the thought of getting back to work.

A new world of writing came lingering into my thoughts then. I tried blogging but was not a professional yet. Yet there was fun, relaxation, happiness and more over a satisfaction that ran across me.

Again with the second one, parenting was more fun, an extreme weary task , yet their smiles just brought smiles on my face. So it was for sure that I never wanted to leave them and go away anywhere at any point. It was my true selfishness to be their mom and be with them that kept me away from anything I did.

Finally with the random motivational hint that came from the thought of making a career was bothering me and almost made survival a question , to my luck instead of asking I was given a job.

“Makeshift”

I was sure – that was the turning point in my whole set of thought. I never knew I would be so happy to work in this way in the comfort of my home, watching my kids grow up right in front my eyes( Indeed need more eyes, to focus on work as well as kids).

And I was happy to make a change to my life goals. I am proud of what I did because I realized “I AM HAPPY , And CONTENT” . So finally all the troubles and weary thoughts were never gone wasted.
Everyone’s life has a path, and whatever happens, you end up doing what you are supposed to do in life. No matter what happens.

I need my mom-always and forever

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Yes , am proud to say that am a mommy’s girl. It doesn’t mean that I never fight with her, but I love her the most in my whole world. She is my role model, she is my guide, mentor, teacher, a mother and what not .

Though I am running my family in a different world ,which is almost my nest, but my home and my mom is the world’s safest place for me. My days start with the messages from her, gone are the days when I used to be called up to wake up by my mom. I used to remember those days quite well enough, my school and college days when she was my alarm. Now am the alarm- a mom in the making.

I can never be like her, though I adore her so much. I wish I could be at least a little perfect like her. Even though I pose a stronger side of me to everyone , at times when am alone and feeling pain- I miss her the most.

A mom can never be replaced – the minute I call her, even miles apart, her words are comforting . Even though far away, her voice is like a soft touch on my soul, making me relax- whispering in my ears – relax dear the world is not running away- be calm.

She is the motivational factor who lets me do and conquer things which I never dreamt of ever in my life. She is like my heaven to me, where I can relax and enjoy being a child again. Everything good or bad- I want to share it with her first. There is more fun in being with her- I love the long walk to temples gossiping about everything and anything in the whole world.

Her talks make me calm and pleasant-else am too irritating usually. 🙂

I wonder what would I do- if she is not taking care of me and my family. The pillar of my home and an engineer to my home. I admit I cry at times when I miss her a lot and fuss over the phone when I am not able to reach her. Thanks to technology at least being far away- am able to hear her voice and even see her.

I wish I could be a mom like her, I know I don’t have the pinch of patience,creativity or feeling as much as she has. But of course, worth trying .

Bedtime story for mama :)

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Yea, that is true ,my cutie pie ,told me a story to put me to sleep .

I was down with headache and then I wanted to take rest, but not easier when my kid is around. Even then , I didn’t want to sleep before feeding her , at least she will let me take rest then. After I was done with her dinner , I went to bed , but due to pain forgot to tell her am going to sleep , and she was busy playing.

After five or ten minutes , I heard her call out for me. In one part , I was so happy to see that , she can never be without me, but on the other side , I wanted little bit of silence.Even then , she came over to me, looking for me all around the house. In spite of her dad telling her not to disturb me, she was adamant that she wanted to be with me. And of course I never denied , as my heart dominated me.

I tried to relax, but it was difficult ,as she was keeping on murmuring to me, hugging me with her one hand around my neck which anyways I was loving. She kept on telling me stories about her school, her favorite cartoon ‘peppa pig’ and doing magic in between like the princess Holly in ‘ben and holly’s lil kingdom’ . 

I kept listening and listening, and in between her dad comes and tell her to be quite, and then she murmur in my ear ,still she didn’t want to stop it. And later the tittle-tattle  became louder, but I didn’t know when I drifted to sleep with her head resting on my shoulder. 

Its a blessing that I have lovely, caring and wonderful daughter in the whole wide world. When I was struggling to relax, she relaxed my mind with her sweet stories. Love you always.