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In search of those eyes -that contained her

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Everywhere there were loud noises and laughter,

the room was filled with chit chats, smiles, and friendly gestures

even then she felt the emptiness in her heart

the room was filled with people

yet her eyes searched for someone

her heart and eye searched for that single connection that she longed for

the craving for getting one sight was at its highest

when their eyes met, her heart stopped

she knew what was her search, and it ended right there, where her eyes could focus

it was hard to take her eyes off those eyes where there was unconditional love

love overflowing from the eyes, she could feel the need for her in those eyes

she held her child and looked deep into the eyes, she could see her reflection
Even seconds away from her baby was a torture for her

she whispered her name in her ears, and then she hugged her ….as if there is no other day to love her

it was like god pronouncing her mom and daughter ….a life long relation

that has an impeccable beauty, unbeatable by any love in the world.

A relation where none is taken for granted.

a love that is in its purest form

Being a mom holding her baby in her arms, was the happiest moment in her life.

What the beach took from her

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In the far end, visible to his eyes, there she stood close to the tree, overlooking the magnificent beach ahead. He knew she loved the way the waves caressed the sand. She compared it to the act of making love, teasing whenever she spoke to him.
 
She was lost in her thoughts, at times smiling at something. She didn’t want anyone, she could find solace even in the roars of the beach and the cool sand. The evening was splendid, she couldn’t take her eyes off the sea and the birds flying. In the far end, all she could see was the waves rushing onto the shore and then carrying away everything from the sand but leaving at least some treasures.
 
Her kids were enjoying the waves, she saw them picking up the treasures that the sea left for them. The sun was setting down, the reddishness was filling the sky. She kept looking at the impeccable beauty of nature, the winds caressing and tickling her soul as it passed by. She felt being young again, the soft breeze was kissing her nose, lips and her neck, she felt like the wind teasing her like the first love.
 
She left her hair open, enjoyed the touch of the wind on the strands of her hair, her soul, raised her hands, stretched herself, and then slowly as if releasing her soul, fell onto the sand. She felt like soaking herself on the sandy beach. She lay down there and felt the whole beach on herself the sands the shells everything. It was like she got plunged into the soft layer of the mother earth. She lay there and watched the sun go down.
 
As soon as the sun touched the horizon, she stood up, walked to the waters, and let the waves gulp her. She stood there watching the waves come and capture her. There was a time when she wished the waves took her away, but now she didn’t.
 
She wanted to be here with her love and wanted to feel the life. She felt soaked and drenched with the salty beach water. She looked for her kids, ran to them, and held their hands and ran into the beach, She played with them for hours, something in her whole life she will never ever get bored off.She realized being a mom had made her think more of others than herself.
 
She drowned her selfishness in the beach and took only the selfless one along with her as she returned home.She wanted to be the desired by others, rather than a need.

Parenting

Its like a big puzzle . 

Seriously I wonder how people manage more than 1 kid, where in I  can’t even manage one. 

My lil  preschooler, has enough tantrums that  I feel like my brain pops out of my head because of stress. I wonder what on earth they want , when are totally stressed out. Sometimes I keep wondering , what others might think , when my lil kid is busy crying and a busy soothing her. Do they think that am a bad mother, not giving what the kid wants, do they really know what am I going through???

Lots of questions ,but doesn’t help me at all.Its always a big confusion, seriously I wonder how my mom managed the two of us.At some point , i feel it was better to be alone , but when I feel lonely who is there to soothe me with their lovely touch, I need my daughter always beside me , even she irritates me with her tantrums. 🙂

After all the fights and crying , she behaves as though nothing happened ,I wonder whats really happening in her thoughts.I wish  I could recollect what exactly was going on in my head when I was a kids like her.

I feel sad , when I shout at her, the smile on her face fades away and the only thing she requires a hug from me, she waits till my hands are stretched out inviting her to hug me, and she comes running ,its a total relief for me and her.We both get relaxed after all the fights , everyday some or the other. 😉

But parenting is fun,because we are learning to love selflessly.