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The Window

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As I sat near the window

browsing the outside world

from the small browser I had – my window

the world was unique from there

I never knew that I would fall in love with that small opening

in the mornings, the window opens me up to the bright sunlight

in the night it brings me the public that is off to sleep

and it will be just me and the night

the night ..with all it beauty

overlapping my thoughts

the window became the world to me

the four borders encapsulating a beautiful world in it

as if my window was the painting on my wall

which changes its pictures daily

it had sorrow, love, pain and happiness

every colorful was life captured in it

and gifted to me

As I sat and watched it forever

penning down my thoughts as I see them

hoping that one day I would be a picture in it too

the window showed me different phases of life

the hardworking, the idle, the old, the young and the newborns  

every individual had a story to tell.

As she drifted into deep sleep

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Her eyes were slipping into a deep sleep

yet her mind was not resting

she wanted to play again

she wanted to be awake, even when her eyes cheated her

by dozing off while she tried to keep it awake

she was looking at her heart that lay close to her

the one she had given a life out of her

the one she nurtured forever in her womb for months

the one she wanted to be in her arms

she watched as her Lil one was playing with her hair and the little dolls she had cuddled

she watched and watched as her eyes were dripping into sleep

yet she woke up to admire the love on earth that was for her

in between as she admired her, her Lil baby fondled her cheeks and gave her a kiss

she was flattered and floating in the air, with all the love she showers on her

there is nothing more beautiful than the love of a mom and baby.

Autumn blooms

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It was the beautiful season of the year – Autumn.

The time when the trees shed their leaves and stand up straight ready to welcome the white snowy coats to cover them. The amazingly beautiful park was covered with orange, red, yellow color leaves – she walked and picked them to feel the beauty. Everything around her was alluring. She didn’t know where to look and where to click. She wished she could gather all this beauty in her heart and cherish it forever.

It was indeed difficult.

The combination of multi-colored trees and the green grass almost swept her mind off. She walked and walked along the path, cherishing the moments she has soaking with this beauty. The weather was cold and she was trying to warm her up in her jackets. The wind was tickling her soft fingers, giving little cold as it goes by. She kept her hands inside her pockets and walked past the park, then to bridge that connects to her home.

As she reached one-fourth of the bridge, she couldn’t take her eyes off the beauty around. She stood there, watching the ripples in the water and the spectacular beauty around her. The soft breeze was pampering her as if she was a feather floating along the wind. 

She stood there lost in her thoughts for a while.

Time swept by, she never knew. In the end, she could see it was the sun setting and warning her it is getting darker soon. In the bright redness of the setting sun, the autumn flowers were impeccable. The mixture of redness was soaking in the atmosphere. She watched the sun set down for his good night sleep while walking up to her home.

As soon as she reached it was dark and everything was same everywhere, overshadowed by the night sky, big black blankets covering up the whole world. 

She finished her chores and climbed up to her cozy bed to feel snuggled in the cold night.She craved for warmth and love. She wrapped her up in the blankets and with the beautiful dream in her eyes slept to the melody played by the breeze in her ears. She slept peacefully to open up her eye to another beautiful day in her life. 

I cannot have enough of your time MOM

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The nights ,where I could cuddle near you, sleep and hug you keeping my legs over you and enjoy a warm sleep.
The soft touch of your caring hands that shower enough blessing for me to live forever.
The way you talk, I love your company more than anyone.
The way you cook and feed me ,even now.
The way you complain that I have not done enough , but on the other side, without me knowing, saying all good things about me.
The way you care and nurture me and now my kids.
The way you bring in and shower all the goodies to my kids whenever you come.
The longing I see in my kid’s eyes ,for you to come and be with them. The way you make my home a heaven.

The way you give company for my loneliness.

The list is endless.

I can never have enough of your time. I am greedy . I need more always.

We fight ,we argue and we have a difference of opinions , but you are my mother, the most treasured gift of my life. In the end of all arguing ,you can find me doing always what you wished for, and I am sure you make right choices for me.

Now since am away from you, the time and the gap kills me, I just wanted to be home and be in your presence .Even though we fight hours and for everything , my life without you is like trees without the sunshine.

I get jealous of others who have their mom near, but even being miles away, you are always with me. The thousand times I call to disturb you , I know it never bothers you because you are used to it. Your sound , your message are enough helping me out in most of the times.

I love the way you complain that I call hundred times a day. And when I don’t call, the immediate call I get, which I answer with a naughty smile and twinkle in my eyes , is all my love for my mom, who loves me the most in the world.

Every day and every minute make me feel I need my mom always and forever.

Last day of her playschool

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Sitting next to my daughter who is asleep , taking a  nap after her last day at school , looking over to all the boxes which I have to fill in , before travelling , am not sure what emotions am going through.

I still remember her first day at school , even then I was crying and when she was leaving her school I was almost crying. May be am being silly as always. Is being tooo emotional a problem , I don’t know but I can’t help it.

I had a tough time , when I was packing all sweets for lovely friends in her school , as my lil one don’t know why she will be giving her friends sweets , the pain of her not realizing that she is saying ‘bye-bye’ to her friends made me cry , but that is life . I know so many good things are in store for her life waiting for her ,and these small things in life , may not matter her in the long run.

As I see her peacefully sleeping , I could memorize all her lovely days and the changes she had gone through since she joined her school.  Things change , places change , but memories live for ever . Am not sure how much she might remember about her days here, but of course she might not forget many at least till she gets another set of  friends and teachers.

A life-long blessing for kids is to fill them with warm memories and later on they become treasures in their heart to live out the tougher days in life.

 

 

Bedtime story for mama :)

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Yea, that is true ,my cutie pie ,told me a story to put me to sleep .

I was down with headache and then I wanted to take rest, but not easier when my kid is around. Even then , I didn’t want to sleep before feeding her , at least she will let me take rest then. After I was done with her dinner , I went to bed , but due to pain forgot to tell her am going to sleep , and she was busy playing.

After five or ten minutes , I heard her call out for me. In one part , I was so happy to see that , she can never be without me, but on the other side , I wanted little bit of silence.Even then , she came over to me, looking for me all around the house. In spite of her dad telling her not to disturb me, she was adamant that she wanted to be with me. And of course I never denied , as my heart dominated me.

I tried to relax, but it was difficult ,as she was keeping on murmuring to me, hugging me with her one hand around my neck which anyways I was loving. She kept on telling me stories about her school, her favorite cartoon ‘peppa pig’ and doing magic in between like the princess Holly in ‘ben and holly’s lil kingdom’ . 

I kept listening and listening, and in between her dad comes and tell her to be quite, and then she murmur in my ear ,still she didn’t want to stop it. And later the tittle-tattle  became louder, but I didn’t know when I drifted to sleep with her head resting on my shoulder. 

Its a blessing that I have lovely, caring and wonderful daughter in the whole wide world. When I was struggling to relax, she relaxed my mind with her sweet stories. Love you always.

Bed time story

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For past few days , a story has become an unavoidable thing in our bedroom before sleep.

Earlier , when every other parents used to say that, we need to read out a story to our kids , its good for them . Everyone  told me that there were few benefits like ,the first and the foremost kids sleep early , secondly they learn many things through stories and as such many more.

I too thought that , its best way to put her to sleep , I kept trying for many months , and the outcome was total waste of my sleep , because instead my daughter ,it was me who was getting sleepier.

The moment I start to read out a book for her, she snatches it from me and start looking at the pictures and do not allow us to put off the lights until she finishes looking at it at least 5 times  over n over .Then I realized that book was not a good enough idea , so another idea popped up that I will memorize a few stories n tell her.

As I was not a good story teller , I couldn’t memorize or tell her any kind of stories  and it all ended up in a total mess. As such my imagination doesn’t work that well at night especially when am off to bed . I was so ashamed ,that what a mom I was ? Can’t even tell a story to her .So as usual I stopped thinking about it , because , it never gave me any conclusion other than am a failure in story telling. 

I decided not to force her, but one afternoon, as she was watching her favorite stories in TV , I noticed that she was concentrating on the narration ,so I quickly checked out the story, its kind of , I got used to those stories now , as they were being played at least fifty times in our house. That night I told her a story and she slept listening to it , if even I paused , she asked me why did I stop, so I understood she was interested and it made me more happy.

One thing I learnt was that , trying to force something on kids doesn’t help , better is to wait and watch , when the time comes , they will surely follow what we wanted them to do.