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Last piece of hope

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I sat in dismay

wondering what made me fail

the failure hit my heart like a bomb

destroying the peacefulness in my life

everything shattered into pieces

which I tried to pick and join

yet everything mismatched

the whole things seemed misplaced

thinking deeply I found what ruined me

trust played a vital role in breaking myself

yet courage was my power to rise

I decided to hold on to the last piece of hope

that shined across, to climb up the hole

the deep hole where I fell into following the unknown

the known played with my heart

molded into something I never ever imagined

the scars became the chains to bound my heart

to never follow the unknown

I learned that life wasn’t easier

yet I created a new me to follow my passion.

the passion that led me to my success

the new life I drew for myself was my dreamland

the land that flourished my dreams.

my soul got its wings to fly into the world of me.

The Window

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As I sat near the window

browsing the outside world

from the small browser I had – my window

the world was unique from there

I never knew that I would fall in love with that small opening

in the mornings, the window opens me up to the bright sunlight

in the night it brings me the public that is off to sleep

and it will be just me and the night

the night ..with all it beauty

overlapping my thoughts

the window became the world to me

the four borders encapsulating a beautiful world in it

as if my window was the painting on my wall

which changes its pictures daily

it had sorrow, love, pain and happiness

every colorful was life captured in it

and gifted to me

As I sat and watched it forever

penning down my thoughts as I see them

hoping that one day I would be a picture in it too

the window showed me different phases of life

the hardworking, the idle, the old, the young and the newborns  

every individual had a story to tell.

She was chained …

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The busy roads

Vehicles running past here and there

everyone busy in mobiles or reading newspapers

the world around her was revolving faster

faster than her heart beat

every second flashed through

the time was ticking quickly

she wanted to hold a second in her hand

and sweep through every microsecond in it

living through the moments

she wished she could live every second with him

looking into his eyes, feeling his warmth

forget the rushing world around them

just them in the whole world

where they could love and be one again

none has time, even when they can find time

she battled among the loneliness and the crowded world

emotions caused a huge shadow where she resisted herself to be one among the crowd

she was all alone, even when thousands were holding her hands

she thought it was her inner self, pulling her away from everything around her

she smiled hiding her tears, battling with the tears rolling out of her eyes

the feelings were crushed under the feets of others

who knew her, but never realized her dreams

she dreamt of running away throwing away all the shackles of emotions

but the chains were stronger, that it wounded her soul, more than her body

the wounds never healed, it bled and bled enough that she forgot the pain

as her body was lost in the space

She looked out of the window for the hope

a hope that let her live the afflictions

the agony of being alive till the hope arrives one day to revive her

her soul waited for the moment to liberate from her tortured mortal

she stayed up all along with contemplation.

Obsession – being a mom

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Take me by your hands

let me walk with you

for the rest of your life

she looked down and held those tiny hands,

who want to walk along with her

those hands meant a world to her

the soft and tenderness of the hand, was her strength

to fulfill and accomplish her journey

she never knew that she would be leading the path to the life she wanted

even though, she walked in front holding those tiny fingers

it was those tiny hands, that gave her strength to move on

the hands that held her firmly,

and knew would never leave her side

it might not be the strongest hands that held her…

but the willingness was always there

and that led her to live

live life to the fullest

none could beat the vision and the love she had for her children

she can walk miles, without even measuring the time and distance

never getting tired or judged by those lovely eyes

the only love that is unconditional and true in the whole world

the trust, that is blind

the care, that is given forever

the bliss of being a mom

~~the bliss of being a mom~~~

To the princess -Who is teaching me motherhood

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I was a wanderer, lost in thoughts and dreams

It was me who wanted to get out of the world and fall in love with nature and forget the world around me.

Little did I knew what the heaven was and what a blessing was,

The moment you arrived in my womb, everything changed, I was someone whom I never knew.

The days and months were the barriers among us, the wait was intolerable.

Never ever realized I could wait for someone, I have never seen

The pain was negligible, with the thought of your first sight

I prayed for the strength and blessing for the first time in my life just to witness your arrival into my world from your home which you made in my womb.

We played with each other all those nine months.

At times I wondered, how do you manage inside me 

I remember the soft hands and legs that moved inside me, giving me some sleepless nights, I knew you just wanted me to know that you were there with me

The moment was the most cherishable one in my life when you came and kept you soft dewdrop like hands on me and sucked the very first drop of milk.

The mom in me was hiding somewhere deep in the dungeons of my heart, which came alive and up.

I see you grow, take your first steps, I fought with the World when someone criticized you, and I will still do that

Growing up, we are fighting like kids do, am becoming a more like a typical mom with all the tantrums like all other moms, forgive me if you feel am not making you feel special.Am a like a lost child who don’t know what to do next as you are my live exam, for which I am not prepared.

I stumble and fall attimes on head or hands yet am managing my very best to be a mom . Forgive me for my ignorance , as you know this is both new for me and you

On your birthday today, the only thing I want to tell you is ” I love you always and forever”

Thank you, my little princess, for making me realize my strengths when I thought I reached the horizon of my dreams and strength, adding more to my wings and helping me fly higher.